Sunday February 7, 2010 Day 7

Dreamsicle was today's chapter
I pondered on this awhile. Very little in my lifetime have I wondered what my dreams were.
In 1986 when I was pregnant with my first child , my older brothers mom took me out to eat for lunch and asked me "What are your dreams for your child?" I did not know . She went on to tell me "Everyone has dreams for their children , do you want her to be a sports star? An artist? To go to college?" I still did not have an answer, at all. I thought at the time it was because I had just a week earlier , three weeks before her birth , decided to leave Gladney and not give her up for adoption. I was wondering at the time , how am I going to even provide for this child let alone wonder about what my dreams are for her !
But twenty three years later I can say that I still have rarely thought about my dreams.
I always thought that it was because I was too busy raising children, too busy with my career , or just lack of imagaination. But now when I go back to that moment in time I think it is sad that I did not have dreams for my child! Or for myself over the years!
Now I know after todays lesson that dreams come from the heart. It says that it is incorporated into our beings and that He never wastes the resources that He has created.
I know now that the dreams I have had have been stifled from lack of confidence in them being able to come true. My failures at times have taken me out of the dream hunt.
I have had detours along the way in seeing my dreams come true. And i know now that it has been to teach me to rely on God. He is preparing me to fulfill my dreams by teaching me to trust Him.
God so enjoys healing my wounds and turning them into strengths so that my dreams can come true but so that they won't only come true but so they will be the dreams He has for me and not what I want for me .
A few of my dreams are to write a book so that it will help or encourage just one person.
If its just one, it will have been enough.
I have a dream to go to Hawaii. I have been to many states. I have seem the oceans of Florida, the plains of Kansas and the mountains of Colorado, but I have never seen "paradise".
I also have a dream to go back to school late this year and go into social work. It is something I can do with my physical health and also it will help others and it's where I am in my element and will bring me joy!
So today has been very helpful. It made me realize deep down in there that I do have dreams.
I just have to find out what they are and how to go about making them happen.
Pull out your" dream "box. What's in there? What are your frozen dreams?
What would you do attempt to do if you knew you would not fail?