Monday February 1, 2010 Day One

Yesterday Robert and I went to the "One Month to Live " kickoff and read day one in our book.
It was all about how you spend your dash, the dash between your birth and death. I have heard the poem, known for years as a medic life is short,I reminded my kids daily "Your never promised another sunrise ", taught them to say "I Love you" when they leave the house , no matter who is around , but how am I spending this dash right here right now in my life?
I've been way too busy, overbooked myself way too much, and spend very little "me " time.
My idea of spending time on myself is to get a pedicure every three months! I am a "caretaker" that's just what I DO !!But I realize I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off , making all the appointments , pampering everyone else, but very little do I take care of myself!
I have realized that if I take care of myself , I will be much better and more efficient in every area of my life! I DO need to take care of myself, get more rest and let that red headed temper simmer sometimes instead of sizzle!! (easier said than done) I also came to realize that in all the "stuff " I am doing that I am taking care of but not actually spending TIME with the people that I love. If i had 30 days to live I would not want them to say , "well she took care of the errands " or "she got us to all our appointments" I would want them to remember the sparkle in my eyes, the love that I show others , and how deeply and fiercely I love them!
In the discussion questions it said to choose what five things you would change if you had one month to live, then we picked one to do this week. Mine is for an hour before bedtime that I will slow down, not run and and run until bedtime or until I can't take it anymore .To actually wind down to prepare myself for my nightime and to be able to properly rejuvenate myself for the following day so that I can wake up refreshed and renewed, instead of feeling like bed was a temporary pit stop!