Monday February 8, 2010 Day 8

Living life full throttle.
I can relate to todays chapter as I have always been a no holds barred kind of person.
Especially in my twenties. I was all about trying to stuff twenty eight hours into a twenty four hour day! I would go to work at my full time job, take kids to daycare , pack lunches , go to my second job that I did not have to have financially but because it was something else I could pursue, and then on to home late in the day and clean , cook supper, and get ready for the next day. Go to ball practice , soccer , and PTA functions. And in the midst of all this I also was always into some kind of volunteer work.
Even burning the candle at both ends I don't know how I did it. I take my grandsons now for the day and feel so wiped out when they go home I wonder how I did it with twice the kids.
I realize now that a lot of my version of full throttle when I was young was about control and what I wanted to do. I was defintely an adrenaline junkie and going ninety to nothing and being a EMT gave me outlets to "feed the need". But it was also about serving my needs and me being in control.
People at the end of their lives are forced to recognize that they are powerless and that they are not in control at all. The weaker they get the more they have to depend on others for their care.
Ultimately, they are forced to turn to God. But when they finally realize they aren't in control in the first place they discover real power and it enables them to live their last days to the very fullest.
We have the same limitless power available to us. All we have to do is to tap into God's power , the same power that raised Christ from the dead, and that is all the power you will ever need.
At times I have sure crashed going full throttle in life. It's not a matter of how we fail but when we fail. It's just part of life.Everyone who has succeeded has usually failed many times.
While Thomas Edison was trying to invent light he said "I have not failed, I have just found ten thousand ways that do not work". We need that same persistance to keep going. The greatest power we need in our lives is the power to begin again. So how do you start over after a a crash?
How do you start over and get a fresh chance after you have failed?
When life hits us hard and we crash and burn, it's great to know that God is a God of second chances, and He wants to give us the power to begin again.I am sure grateful that He is all about second chances or He would have thrown me out a long time ago.
Its not just the power for a fresh start,it's also the power to get back on track and go faster than ever before.
What's your greatest fears for trusting God completely with your life?
What is the basis of this fear? Journal about the way you would face this fear if you only had one month to live.